I've been in NYC less than two weeks, but it feels like another two years.Time flies when you're broke.
Gone are the days of steady paychecks on the 1st and 15th, and here again are the times of tips and chips on my shoulder left by perturbed tourists who expected their lobster to come with a side of fries.
Surprising, but I don't really mind waiting tables anymore. There was an adjustment period. The person who's upset is no longer on the other side of an e-mail but staring you in the face and refusing to move their iPhone away from their water glass (seriously, I will drown it and not feel bad). Still, once you get used to smiling your way through an esoteric wine description and assuring that all dressings will be placed on the side, autopilot kicks in and you can focus on the important things in life...
like what day of the week it is, because I seriously have no idea, this life is anarchy.
I would like to tell you that I'm belting my face off every day at callbacks and step-ball-changing into dance calls. However, I have 7 headshots left and had half a pack of oatmeal for lunch. The pavement will be pounding me for a while.
I'm OK with that. For the first time since graduating college, I don't feel like I'm in a race anymore. The first week of being back, I did feel panicked and confused. Then, as I was washing my hands in the bathroom one morning, I made eye contact with myself and - impulsively - gave myself the middle finger.
There's a strange confidence that comes from telling yourself to f*ck off.
I'm getting really good at Xbox,
TJB: Making It
