Tomorrow, we head back to the city......and I'm terrified...
The city that I turned away from just months ago to move to Chicago to be beckoned back to be sent on the road to be plunged into hellfire...I must now face again.
Sure, I have a few weeks of security. I'll get paid ("paid" I should say because once my per diem disappeared I might as well work a shift at McDonald's for the same rate) through December 11th...the day my student loans kick in (and a MERRY CHRISTMAS it is!). Sure, I have more money in my bank account than I've had in 5 years, but I've also yet to pay my own rent and well...that'll be a check soaked in tears.
Haven't I already endured this nerve wracking transition?! Isn't once enough?! Going back to NYC tomorrow really won't be any different than it was in June. I'm pretty much homeless. I have no agent. It's like the city's embarrassed for me.
But I did spend a total of 8 Billion hours in a Dodge Sprinter touring America's smallest cities...and thank GOD I'm Equity because now I can be rejected by people who mean something.
But alright, let's forget the negativity for a second. I did learn a lot while on the road.
I learned that...well...I learned that...I learned...
You know what, I'll get back to you.
Until then, pour the drinks NYC.
I'm going to need stiff one.
DRINKS. I SAID DRINKS.
Why are all these beer bottles empty,
TJB: Making It
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