if you've got it, so does somebody else

I spent the entirety of yesterday filming a new web series created by some Northwestern friends.

I know...web series.

When I hear "web series", I can't help but hear "Living on a Prayer" thumping in the background of my subconscious.

But some people argue that the future of television is the web series. In fact, Tom Hanks has a new web series.

Then again, Tom Hanks hasn't been nominated for an Oscar since he starred alongside a volleyball back in 2000.

I argue that as long as I have something to show my parents when they write me checks, I could give a shit about the future of anything except the roof over my head.

So when I started filming for this web series about a group of young actors just out of college living in New York City trying to make it...

 ...everything started to sound a little familiar...

Well, I guess they say write what you know, and I wouldn't be writing if I were the only young actor who knew.

Still, the entire experience taught me something about this business:

Never think that you're unique or original. There are hundreds of people with the same great ideas you have, and the first to make it happen is the one who gets the credit.

Unless it's about vampires, and then the first 10-20 will get the credit.

So, I had a panic attack.

Or as I call my iced-coffee induced freak outs: a gay breakdown.

What if I become known for never being known? What if I make it by never making it?

OH NO! By writing this blog, have I Kathy Griffined myself?  Did i just curse myself to a life of writing about almost-there instead of going out and getting-there and still pretending I haven't gotten-there when I do finally get-there?

So, I've begun a collaboration on writing the pilot episode for Making It  along with reviewing the entire blog to begin compiling the book. I might as well be prepared to have my artistic property stolen by some future Carnegie Mellon grad who knew the right people at 22.

And if my ego can ever get over the fact that I might never make it because I was a talented actor...

Whow...wait a second...hold up you guys...I just saw some clips from filming and WOW.

I look really good on camera.

Enjoy your day NBC Newsroom,

TJB: Making It