not for the life of me

I know you've all been worried. In one of my most inspirational posts, I had given myself a goal date of September 15.

Well, that day has come and gone and still no word from me.

You'll have to forgive me because I haven't been able to stand up for the past few days. You see, I've started P90X.

What is P90X? I like to think of it as in-home boot camp for those who can't afford (due to lack of money or confidence) a real personal trainer at a public gym. For about an hour a day (plus additional exercises and cardio not to mention a suggested diet of oxygen and saliva) some juice head on a DVD motivates you to sweat until you puke.

No seriously, the puking is an extension of the ab exercises.

The most amazing part of it all? I'm doing it in my apartment. MY apartment. That's right. I have officially moved in to an apartment.

As in: I'm not moving at the end of the month.

As in: I've unpacked my suitcases for the first time since graduating college.

As in: yes my parents still help pay my rent but now they can mail things to me.

I have a friend who says I'm the worst at moving to New York because I've never actually moved here.

I began to realize maybe that's my problem. The reason I miss Chicago so much is because I'm still living in Chicago. While unpacking, I found a t-shirt from my college a cappella group tucked away in a hidden pocket of my suitcase where it has been since I packed it in Evanston over a year ago.

I too have stayed tucked away in that hidden pocket.

...oh yeah, that was good. I could SEE your heart strings tugging...

No, I don't want to stay in New York forever. Yes, I would love to move back to Chicago.

But I have always been a person who, no matter what I am doing, gives 110% until I am the best of the best.

So, I live here now. I mean, I'm REALLY going to start living here now.

And even though nothing is forever,
the only way out is forward.

If I can't be the most employed actor of the year, I'll at least be the hottest. So let's go P90X, bring it on, because as long as you're in MY home

I will beat you.

And since New York is now OFFICIALLY my home, the rest of you had better watch out as well.

I will be shirtless on Halloween,

TJB: Making It